I saw my shrink yesterday. Needed a refill. She said I looked tense. I said I don't sleep. She asked what was going on. I told her nothing. Nothing is going on. Nothing has changed. Same job. Same life. Same room. I shouldn't complain, its a better life than many. Some days I can't help but want something more. I wish I could figure out what that more was though. Maybe that more I really want is a good nights sleep and a week of sunny warm weather.
I hate working tired. When I am tired at work my boss asks me things like "Will you stay an extra hour today?" or "On Monday can you work til six?" and I will say stupid things like, "yeah, sure" before realizing that I just agreed to work from 7am until 6pm on Monday! That is 11hrs at work! What is the matter with me??? Oy, as in Vey.
there should be another list or two this weekend. I am just too tired right now.
G'night.
No list today. Maybe tomorrow.
Posted by Maddie at 5/18/2006 10:47:00 PM 0 comments
26 Albums
Today's List? Its all about the music, baby.
- Abbey Road - The Beatles
- Graceland - Paul Simon
- Tapestry - Carole King
- Bridge Over Troubled Water - Simon and Garfunkel
- Hot Rocks 1964-1971 - The Rolling Stones
- Creedence Clearwater Revival - Chronicle, Vol. 1: The 20 Greatest Hits
- Riding with the King - B.B. King and Eric Clapton
- Unplugged - Eric Clapton
- Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band - The Beatles
- Come Away With Me - Nora Jones
- The Best of the Song Books - Ella Fitzgerald
- Hey! Ho! Let's Go: The Anthology - The Ramones
- Essential Clash - The Clash
- The Best of Blondie - Blondie
- Dark Side of the Moon - Pink Floyd
- She's So Unusual - Cyndi Lauper
- The Immaculate Collection - Madonna
- Heaven on Earth - Belinda Carlisle
- The Bangles - Greatest Hits - The Bangles
- Songs About Jane - Maroon 5
- Pieces of You - Jewel
- Classic Sinatra - Frank Sinatra
- Whoa, Nelly! - Nelly Furtado
- No Angel - Dido
- Cheap and Evil Girl - Bree Sharp
- Legend - Bob Marley
Posted by Maddie at 5/14/2006 06:37:00 PM 3 comments
26 Places
Todays list is: 26 Places I want to go before I die.
- Hawaii -cause I want to smell the plumeria in the morning breeze
- Oxford -cause thats where they make Giles'
- San Francisco -cause they have cable cars, I'll be sure to wear some flowers in my hair.
- Library of Congress -cause they have the biggest collection of books in the US.
- Japan -cause I like sushi.
- Hong Kong -cause I like Chinese
- Lake Titicaca -cause I know the song from Animaniacs
- Roswell, NM -cause the aliens were there.
- Venice -cause they have rivers instead of streets.
- The Louvre -cause they have the Mona Lisa
- Disney World -cause it IS the happiest place on earth.
- Santa Claus, IN -cause I don't think there is a tackier place on earth
- Guggenheim Museum - cause it's fun to say Guggenheim.
- Lyon -cause my dad said that France was amazing but Parisians can be rude.
- Dublin -cause I am sure I can meet someone names Seamus.
- Deadwood, SD -cause its a cool show.
- Las Vegas - Cause I love the Vegas.
- London -cause I want to get on a double decker bus.
- New Orleans -cause my dad loved it there.
- Grand Canyon -cause the last time I saw it, well it was a big whole. (Avoid the Best Western in Flagstaff.)
- Anchorage, AK -cause I would love to see the Aurora
- New Zealand -cause they have sheep.
- Australia -cause I should visit the land of Baby Goose's forefeathers.
- Maine -cause I love lobster.
- Waterbury, VT -cause that's where they make Ben and Jerry's.
- Home -cause it is always good to go home again.
Posted by Maddie at 5/11/2006 09:44:00 PM 4 comments
26 Shows
Today's List? No order, no reason, just 26 television shows I watch or used to watch. I do not claim that any of them are thought provoking or really wonderful (except Deadwood, a bit vulgur but the fastest hour on Television since BtVS)
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer (Never missed an Episode)
- Angel
- Deadwood (New Episodes on June 11th!!)
- E.R.
- House
- Gilmore Girls
- The O.C.
- C.S.I.
- My So-Called Life
- American Dreams (Why oh Why did they cancel that show? Now we will never know what happens to Meg? Did she really go to Berkley on the back of a bike? Did Luke and Roxanne stay together? How about J.J. and Beth? )
- Carnivale (Are we ever going to see Season 2 on DVD?)
- Iron Chef
- Roswell
- Star Trek (TOS; TNG, Voyager, Enterprise, basically anything but DS9. The reasons DS9 doesn't count is a different list altogether)
- Fraggle Rock
- Punky Brewster
- The Wonder Years
- The X-Files (Before it got bad)
- Rome
- Monk
- Law & Order
- Numb3rs
- Popular
- The Daily Show
- Mr. Rogers
- The 4400
Posted by Maddie at 5/10/2006 09:26:00 PM 2 comments
26 Things...
In honor of my upcoming Birthday, I am going to start making lists. Todays list? 26 things I want to do before I am 30.
- Fit into a size 10.
- Figure out office politics.
- Have *something* published.
- Go on a roadtrip with no destination.
- Get a stamp in my passport.
- Read (or re-read) those books that I should have read in High School but didn't because my High School was Ghetto and barely could afford paper for the copy machine.
- Buy my own place. (Note BUY, not rent)
- Fall in Love.
- Figure out what I want to DO with the rest of my life.
- Pay off my car.
- Learn to live simply.
- Attend A Really Big Protest.
- Learn to do basic home improvements like install ceiling fans and fix toilets.
- Go back to college for a graduate degree.
- Get Married.
- Be asked to dance. (A real dance, not get your freak on type dance)
- Bake a perfect chocolate souffle.
- Eat healthier.
- Drink more water.
- Keep a plant alive for more than 3 months.
- Get my photos organized and scanned into my computer.
- Learn to solder.
- Finish things I started.
- Start playing piano again.
- Spend more time with my family.
- Pursue my art, whatever my art should be.
Posted by Maddie at 5/09/2006 08:25:00 PM 4 comments
Twenty Six.
I am going to be twenty six. I am having a hard time wrapping my head around that. Twenty Six years old. I have been asked the perennial question: What do you want. What do I want... What do I want? I want to not be twenty six. I want to not be single. I want to not be frusterated with my life, I want direction, I want more than this. However, I also realize how lucky I am to have a full time job, with a 401K and health insurance. So, its not quite enough to move out on my own but still, its more than many have. I also want a new watch. My favorite watch died over the weekend. At first I thought it was the battery but after I replaced the battery it still didnt work. I am very picky about my watches too. It had the date, indiglo, numbers 1-12 but not huge, I loved that watch. I also really thought that the way the character Melinda on Ghost Whisperer had her watches on was really cute but I don't have watches like that. I've been trying to find a picture of it but I can't seem to locate one. Oh well. Well, catch ya later.
Posted by Maddie at 5/08/2006 10:12:00 PM 0 comments